SUMMARY: Struck by the similarities between these posts after Tika and after Chip.
It's like Groundhog Day. The movie.
I've been here before.
The post, near the beginning:
Don’t want to be reminded of the absence of a dog at every turn in every room. My initial reaction this morning was to load Zorro up into the car with me and go away somewhere for four days. Then I started realizing that, if I did that, I would be coming back to all the memories still right in front of me. It’s not that I want to erase Chip. I just want to reduce what I see.
March 25, 2015: Clearing Away
The post began:
It's not that I don't want to remember Tika--I do--but I don't want things ambushing me everywhere I turn.
After she was gone, I started right away in clearing away everything that I knew would sucker-punch me in the gut if I were to see them.
And yet I keep lining up my heart for more. Usually I think it's all worth it.
You have had so much loss with your dogs...so many of them were way too young. You deserve a nice 14 or 15 year relationship with a happy pup. I don't know how I'm going to get through the days after Katie leaves me. I guess the same way everyone does...one moment at a time. I don't know that we will be able to line our hearts up again though.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Dawn.
ReplyDeleteI think I've mentioned that, after my first dog (Amber) died, it was 2 years before I could even imagine bringing in a dog to fill her metaphorical shoes. Even then, I ended up getting a dog that looked a lot like her (Remington). YOu and Katie have a particularly special relationship; I think that blogging about one's pups, and particularly from their points of view, bring them so much closer.
My dogs' lifespans have varied--so far, the long-lived ones got quite a few years on the cancer ones. So, Amber: 13, Sheba: 16, Jake: 15, Tika 13.
I just think that I still haven't managed to recover from T & B going at essentially the same time. I am far far far from the only one to experience that, but I'm the only ME so far that has.