tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3730801.post4731821523589144858..comments2023-12-31T17:47:27.217-08:00Comments on Taj MuttHall Dog Diary: Recalculating Route...Elfhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01827436807468320435noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3730801.post-27930492796425601082019-06-09T00:17:14.786-07:002019-06-09T00:17:14.786-07:00Thanks, Dawn. I hope that I can retire in the next...Thanks, Dawn. I hope that I can retire in the next year or 2. Thought I would a year or 2 ago but, well, Things. I have had recurring bouts of depression in my lifespan--not as in suicidal, but as in, I don't think I can get out of bed this morning. I'm not down in that pit at the moment, but I am definitely struggling, comparing the way many things used to be that were better with the way they are now (instead of the opposite), a bit of a sign of depressive thinking. Five years ago, things didn't seem to bad, and I was still looking more forward than back. Maybe that *is* aging and realizing that the years remaining are shrinking, but for me I also think a lot of it is the physical stuff--it's so restrictive in so many ways. Retirement doesn't seem like the panacea that it did without the physical restrictions. You know--oh, when I retire, I can hike all day and travel all the time and go do agility.... oh, wait, no, my knees are killing me. (Or whatever.) I also feel like I'm just whining. Thanks for listening.<br />Elfhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01827436807468320435noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3730801.post-4216405697031658422019-06-07T22:23:35.054-07:002019-06-07T22:23:35.054-07:00I'm sad that you're less happy than you ex...I'm sad that you're less happy than you expected to be. I wonder if that's partly loss, partly the way we age, and that as we reflect on our past life there isn't always something that we wish we had done, or not done or thought about or tried. I'm having thoughts about all the things I probably won't get to do, just because the years are running out. And are we being maudlin in thinking this way at our ages? I am continually, CONTINUALLY, surprised that I am 63. I forget that so often, until something hurts, knee, hip, neck, wrist, foot, back, that I'm older than the 45 I seem to think I am. I've been sad, too, to think that so much of my life is finished and I don't get to have a do-over. On the other hand...retirement is worth getting older for. So anyway, this rambling, nonsensical comment is meant to make you feel less alone. I hope it works.Dawnhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00824027366993286152noreply@blogger.com